I started to experience difficult circumstances in my life and some of the pain in my body started to come back. I was also very tempted to go back to my old bad habits.

I knew that I was feeling condemned and needed to just rest in the Lord. So I would quote scriptures such as “I am the righteousness of God in Christ” and “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want” and even prayed in tongues. I received revelation and comfort from the Lord and I was basically making it through but overall, there were still a lot of areas of pain in my body and I wasn’t quite as joyful as I used to be.

Well, a few days ago, I was prompted to meditate. I told myself, “I’m going to meditate today before I do anything else while my brain is fresh, and without any distractions.” The Holy Spirit led me to meditate on 1 Peter 2:24—Who His own self bare our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness, by whose stripes, ye were healed.

So I literally just sat in the living room with my eyes closed and meditated on that verse for nearly three hours! At first, I felt bad because of the images that I was seeing of the Lord’s suffering, but then I remembered that Pastor Prince had said that Jesus came to give, and He loves it when we take from Him. So I just took the images as being from the Holy Spirit and just watched them. WHAT A MIRACLE! My back started to feel so much better to the point where I officially consider this another miracle moment in my life!

For the last three days or so, I have just been meditating on that same verse. It seems like the more excruciating the pain I see the Lord suffering, the more relief I feel in my own body! And to think that He was being crushed by the very Father whom He had such a tender and trusting relationship with. Knowing that He cried, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?” so that I could be forgiven and healed rips my heart to shreds. But that also heals my body!

I am flying so high right now! Whenever I twist my body in my chair or bend over to pick something up in a position where I normally expect pain, I almost instinctively first see the Lord going through that motion and experiencing all of the pain for me, and I am able to carry out the motion with no pain at all! I feel like I have the spinal cord of a newborn baby!

And when I have to solve a problem at work and I feel like I should be punished for not knowing the answer, I see the Lord already punished for it, and my body loosens and I am able to give an accurate relaxed answer based on what I know, and be confident in Him to protect me if I have to say that I don’t know or ask someone for help!

I am CONFIDENTLY expecting all of the other areas of my body and life to align more and more with God’s Word too! Praise the Lord and thank you, Pastor Prince, for teaching us about meditation and the Lord’s radical grace!