When I was a child, I lived far from my parents and always longed to be loved. I was molested by unknown men and by my tenth grade, I fell into sexual sins. I started lusting, masturbating, and molesting people. I hated my behavior and wanted to stop, but couldn’t. At that time, sin was very attractive to me.

After college, I continued to be bound to my sexual addictions. I dated a woman who broke my heart and did not give me the love I was looking for.

After the relationship ended, I began to draw closer to the Lord. I read the Bible and prayed regularly. But I was still fighting the same sexual urges. I even resorted to punching my fist against the wall and slapping myself, just so I would stop myself from sinning.

I would also confess my sins before praying because I thought that by doing so, God would hear me. My sinful lifestyle continued nevertheless and I went into another two-year relationship that broke my heart once more.

In the end, I had a debt of about $3,000 and a messed-up career. The Lord helped me clear my debt within a year but I remained very hurt and believed no one would truly love me.

My parents were worried about me and led me into an arranged marriage. For some reason, I would not consummate the marriage but continued with my sinful habits such as lusting and masturbating. I found no pleasure in my habits, felt no love in my heart, and believed I was dead to all feelings. My wife cried and tried to leave me so many times.

I went to so many preachers and asked them to pray for me. Several told me that I was going through some kind of family curse and I believed them. Then one day, I heard Pastor Prince preach on GOD TV.

I learned that as a believer, God does not condemn me today, that I am the righteousness of God in Christ, and as Jesus is, so am I in this world. That was when I truly understood the love of God toward me. I started listening to people’s testimonies about God’s grace in their lives, and confessed by faith that God can break my addictions.

For the first time in my life, I felt peace and joy within. The truth of grace freed me from my fifteen-year addictions and struggles, and removed all the wrong believing that I had. The voices of temptation also lost their hold on me, and I finally felt my mind and body line up with God’s Word.

I have been claiming God’s 120 percent restoration in my life and He is faithful. Now, my marriage is restored, my wife is happy, and I am sharing the grace gospel with her. I am also blessed with a one-year-old daughter and had the opportunity to move my family to a city in the region with better living conditions. It is all by God’s grace.

Thank you, Pastor Prince, for the message of grace. May God bless you. To God alone be all the glory.