After my husband and I lost our first baby, we went through 2-and-a-half years of infertility, which led to us going through fertility treatment. I had terrible side effects from the medication, including symptoms very similar to post-partum anxiety and depression, as well as very scary thoughts.

While I did give birth to a beautiful baby boy, the effects of coming off the fertility medication post-partum only intensified the symptoms of anxiety and depression. I literally thought I was losing my mind.

The doctor kept saying to give it time and my hormones would level out, but I was 8 months post-partum and still felt terrible. It was then that I went to a library and saw Pastor Prince’s book The Power of Right Believing. It seemed to jump off the shelf at me.

This book literally changed my life. It spoke specifically to so many wrong beliefs I had and brought me out of the 2 years of constant anxiety, depression, and worry about whether God was going to heal me. As I read it, the Lord was healing me physically, mentally, and spiritually.

I began to ask the Lord for another pregnancy, this time, without medication. We really wanted to expand our family but did not want to go through the past 2 years’ experience once more. My husband and I started trying again once my son was weaned, but we weren’t tracking or doing anything special—we just rested in the Lord.

One day, I was listening to a sermon by Pastor Prince in which he prophesied over those who had been believing the Lord for a child. He said that a year from now, we would be holding a child in our arms. I received this in Jesus’ name. God is so good and faithful. That month, I had a positive pregnancy test result! I told my husband this child is from the Lord as there was no way we could have gotten pregnant without Him.

But 4 days later, I started bleeding. I was freaking out but a dear sister in Christ kept encouraging me in the Lord. She kept reminding me of what the Lord had already spoken to me and of all His promises in the Word. The Lord said to me, “Do not fear, this child shall not die.” We clung onto His promises together.

The doctor tested my hCG (human chorionic gonadotropin) levels, and the first day it was 329. Two days later, it dropped to 259. In the early stages of pregnancy, the hCG levels should double over 2 to 3 days for the pregnancy to be viable. The nurse warned that I may be losing my pregnancy. I told her, “I believe the levels are going to go back up.”

My husband and I had to go on a business trip 2 days later, so I didn’t manage to get another hCG test done. While on the trip, I was still spotting, so throughout the whole time we kept reciting God’s promises and praying over our child. We knew the Lord is the author of life and not death, and it is all by His grace. We chose to stand on His promises instead of the doctor’s report. It was not always easy but praise the Lord for that sweet sister who encouraged us whenever we wavered.

We went for an ultrasound after getting back and the technician pointed out the gestational sac, yolk sac, and fetus. She also detected a heartbeat! I turned to my husband and almost jumped off the table. We had a heartbeat, praise the Lord!

From then on, I had a perfect pregnancy. Early the following year, we welcomed our precious baby boy, Christian Matthew.

I did get discouraged when I started to experience some symptoms of post-partum anxiety and depression 3 months after Christian was born. But I knew those were not my thoughts and the Lord would heal me and bring me through. I ended up only experiencing mild symptoms for about 6 months.

I stand here now declaring how good the Lord is. He wants to restore, replenish, heal, provide, and do so much more for us than we can ever imagine!