I had struggled with the idea of God healing me even though I had seen Him do amazing things. I’d spent time in Africa where I saw many people healed by the power of God. Once, a woman asked me to pray for her baby who couldn’t move his legs from the waist down. I prayed and the child started kicking! Because of all the healings I saw, I began to wonder why I couldn’t receive healing for my injured knee.

I am a runner and I love to run because I enjoy the amazing freedom it gives me. I was going to begin marathon training when in just 1 week I injured my knee 3 times at work. With my knee injured I couldn’t run. I rested and tried again after 6 weeks, but there was so much pain I couldn’t walk for 3 days. The pain was excruciating and I just kept asking God why He wouldn’t heal me. I believed He had spoken to me about participating in the marathon, so I couldn’t understand what was happening.

I had watched a Joseph Prince message in which he talked about how we can sometimes shut off God’s blessings. So I asked God to show me where the problem was. Shortly after, I received the answer. He showed me that I was carrying a huge amount of guilt and shame because of something I did when I was a very small child. I had buried this but it had caused me to think I was never good enough for God’s blessings.

I also had a chronic pessimistic view of life. In Hebrews 11:6, the Bible says that anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. I’ve always believed God existed, but my problem was that I couldn’t believe I could be rewarded because I had guilt and shame.

But here is the happy news: I was healed of the old hurt, shame, and guilt. After being healed of that, I was able to believe that God wants to bless me. And the first thing I did was to ask for healing again, for my knee.

This time, I felt an amazing calm and confidence when I asked God, and I was able to run 12 miles in a week with no pain! There was a shooting pain during one run but when God revealed to me that it was just the enemy trying to get me to doubt my healing gift, I just kept going and thanking God for His goodness. Not only did God heal me, but He also did abundantly more, because I shouldn’t have been able to have such a great run after taking so much time off!

Thank You, God! Thank you, Joseph Prince, for being such an amazing vessel speaking God’s truths!