I used to dabble in witchcraft and terrorize my family with my anger issues. I was also suicidal. I felt bleak about my life and would cut myself. I also didn’t believe in God and thought Christianity was a joke.

I attempted suicide more than once as I thought I wasn’t worth anything to anyone. I took pills and overdosed on cough syrup. However, having a praying mother who trusted in God’s love for me saved my life.

I started watching and listening to some Christian programs upon my mother’s encouragement. The suicide attempts stopped but nothing else changed. Then, I tried New Age practices to “fix” myself, such as smoking cigarettes while visualizing myself happy. That did not work.

While getting ready for bed one night, I started feeling depressed and had thoughts of killing myself again. When I refused those thoughts, I heard negative voices in my head telling me, “You’re worthless, ugly, no one loves you. You’re killing your mother being the way that you are. Everyone hates you. You don’t deserve to live.”

I began having horrible nightmares. I also experienced sleep paralysis where I felt as if someone was holding me down and suffocating me so I couldn’t yell out for help. This happened night after night for two to three months.

Finally, out of exhaustion and fear, I went to my living room, turned on the television, and began watching Joseph Prince’s program. He was talking about God’s love for me. At the end of the program, I asked aloud, “How can God love me? How do I experience this love?”

After that, I watched another Christian program on another channel with a similar message and an invitation to receive Christ. I said the salvation prayer, invited Jesus into my heart, and had peaceful sleep all night.

I woke up the next morning feeling renewed. However, I remained fearful of not being able to sleep peacefully at night. So I resorted to sleeping on the couch, repeating the Lord’s prayer to myself every night until I fell asleep.

After some time, I had courage to sleep in my room again. God also led me to Pastor Prince’s message about the holy anointing oil. My mother and I prayed over the oil and I drew a cross on my door with it. Finally, I experienced rest and felt the love of God that helped me sleep like a baby.

All this happened back in 2009 and I have grown a lot with God since then. His love has changed me inside and out. I am not the same person that I was before.

Today, I don’t smoke, am living a joyful life, and know God’s love for me. I also have love and compassion toward others, and have no desire to be in sinful relationships. Not only that, people have remarked that I look younger and exude a loving spirit. My family relationships have been restored and am blessed with a wonderful partner.

Thank you, Pastor Prince, for preaching the love and Word of God. Thank you for showing me that I am forgiven in Christ. Through the grace of God, I have been delivered from a life of pain and misery. I am now a happy, loving, youthful, and mighty woman of God.

May God bless you and your family.